March 31, 2006

Lonely planet

Thank you, D, for popping by NIE yesterday just to have lunch with me. You may or may not know, but I really appreciate it a lot. Because it has come to a point, I feel that I'm just shrinking from everything around. It's not uncommon, it's not wrong to feel that way. That, I'm sure. It will pass, if I don't hold on to it. Much like what I told you on MSN, everything in the past 8 years just passed without leaving any significant stone behind.

I believe strongly in the importance of friends. Friends like the kind I told you. Male or female. Friends like you. Because at times like this, I think the only group of people who I don't feel obligations to are friends.

A spontaneous suggestion that you took up without so much as a thought about the horrible distance. And to think you even have to buy the food. =P

I appreciate that. Thank you.

xxx

Galaxy of me and galaxy of balloons

The former is just me. The latter is of balloons, all colours and shapes. Which one sounds more like a lonely planet?

xxx

My Vocab

Indifferent:-

1. Having no particular interest or concern; apathetic: indifferent to the sufferings of others.
2. Having no marked feeling for or against: She remained indifferent toward their proposal.
3. Not mattering one way or the other: It's indifferent to me which outfit you choose.
4. Not active or involved; neutral: an indifferent chemical in a reaction.

placid:-

1. Undisturbed by tumult or disorder; calm or quiet. See Synonyms at calm.
2. Satisfied; complacent.

inert:-
1. Unable to move or act.
2. Sluggish in action or motion; lethargic.

Which one sounds more dead?

xxx

Never just the right time.

Do you sometimes feel that the things that happen in your life never happen just at the right time? It's either bloody too late or fucking too early.

And the thing that really 'blows' you away is that, fuckit, they always happen at the same time. You know, everything just come crashing at the same time.

Do you then find that you simply do not know how to cope? It's like you can never please everyone and satisfy everything at the same time.

You know how I usually respond to such times? I switch to my indifferent and unbothered mode. Not calm, just placid. I don't think they are exact synonyms. Because I feel 'placid' seems to suggest there's a lot of underlying currents. Indifferent and placid.

So, just tell me what you want and tell me how exactly to achieve what you want, I will do it. My brain just goes into reclusion, my dearth of feelings. And, what I really, really want to do?

I want to sleep. And sleep. And sleep. And only wake up when the page has been refreshed.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 08:34